As I said yesterday, some guy in the house right next to my school killed himself with poison gas. The cops and the fire department came by about 1:45 yesterday afternoon, and they made us close all the windows and doors in our school, which made teaching right uncomfortable (getting hot in Japan at the moment)
Found out a few more details in the news today...the guy was 20 years old, living at home with his parents, who were out when he killed himself. He bought the chemicals to make the gas at a hardware store, and the clerk called the police due to the fact that many people have offed themselves in this manner this year...the police broke into his house, but too late to save him.
I really want to show this sort of thing to the incoming JETs who are starting to post with wide-eyed innocence on all the websites. I feel like saying, "You know, if this is such a *great* country, why do its citizens keep offing themselves in record numbers?" Not only that, but they seem to enjoy killing themselves in ways that cause maximum problems for those around them.
I have no real issue with suicide. Hell, I've recommended it, semi-seriously, to some of my depressed friends on occasion. If you truly feel like your life has nowhere to go, then maybe ending it is the best thing....
But.
Don't fucking bother the rest of us with it. Last week in the neighboring prefecture, 70 people were hospitalized after some asshole pulled the same gas-bullshit. Several weeks ago in Tokyo, it was over 300 people.
You want to end it, end it. If you have the energy for grand statements, make them in person. Dickheads.
Oh yeah, still haven't found out who our successors will be, so we have no idea if they'll buy our stuff, or even if they'll be married and can thus have our apartment. Semi-stressful. I'd almost rather know I wasn't going to get a successor, then I could start dealing with stuff. I don't mind taking care of things, I just like to know when I have to.
In final news, I have to go to work tomorrow to SIT AT MY FUCKING DESK ALL GODDAMN DAY, BECAUSE SOME
I'm done. I still really enjoy teaching my classes, but that's a maximum of 5 hours a week. The rest of the time at school, I'm just thinking about leaving.
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and yeah.. My "sit at my desk with my thumb up my ass" day is Sunday. And of course they told me about it when? Today, just as I was leaving to go to a meeting across town.
I plan to show up on time. Sit there for about an hour or so...or at least until everyone has vacated the office...and then go the frak home and enjoy the rest of my gorram weekend. Or I may suddenly develop a migraine and take byouku.
It's a good thing I'm staying for study and travel, because I'd be SOL if I were staying for school...
A Nobeoka resident.
Fifth, for the record, just because I *can* see the big picture doesn't mean I have to like it. I know why things are happening, that doesn't make them right. I'll tell anyone to their face that I am underutilized, and that it's retarded to come sit at a desk all day on a Saturday when no one will even talk to me anyway. I'm working today too, at my bunkasai, and it's fine, because I'm doing something productive, helping my students, and promoting good will.
You tell me, "Resident", how I'm doing any of those things when I'm sitting at my desk in an empty teacher's room, because everyone else who *had* to work that day took nenkyu anyway?
I wouldn't dream of deleting your comment, I stand by what I say, and I hope you do too. Maybe next time you can sign it, and we can have a semi-rational discussion about it.
Oh, and why shouldn't I be using those words? They're English words, hell, it would help my students understand English movies if I *taught* those words :) Again, it's my LJ, I'll post what I want.
First off, I really shouldn't have insulted the club teachers. It's not their fault, and calling them names is uncalled for. I don't have a problem with the language I used, but the targets were not appropriate.
Second - You may be a "resident", but you obviously don't know me so well. I like Japan about as much as I like any country. I don't like blind obedience at all, and I don't like people who think that there can't be anything wrong here, "because it's Japan." This country has some serious problems. It has the highest suicide rate in the 1st world, as well as the highest rate of anorexia. People are treated like pre-sized cogs in machines, and there isn't any real room for personal expression or treating individuals like, well, individuals. On top of that, it's a very closed-minded society with little room for people who think differently, or even who come from different countries....I'm sorry, "Gaikoku".
There are some great things here too, but those don't remove the negatives, and it's my prerogative to mention any of those negatives I want to in my LJ. Even if I never mention a single positive thing here, it's still my life and my decision how I live it, and where I live it.
Oh, and I almost never wait for the perfect moment when I take pictures. I immerse myself into what I want to say, and the perfect moment presents itself.
The thing that I take the most exception to in this comment though was the "wait until you see the core before you criticize." - How do you know I haven't? The core of something isn't always beautiful.
Finally, this post was made at a point in time when I was very frustrated. There are other times when I'm less frustrated. There are other times when I'm *more* frustrated (I rarely post during those moments.) I say this not to excuse or explain anything, as I stand by the spirit of what I said even at this moment, although were I to express that spirit at the moment, I would *probably* use less inflammatory language. I'm not Pollyanna. I see bad things, and I bring them out into the open so they can be dealt with. Admittedly, I have a high tolerance for conflict and aggressive behavior, both from myself and other people, but calling a spade a spade isn't a bad thing, or a reason to "just leave".
I welcome a response, although I don't think I'll get it. Should you want to continue this in person or over the phone, you probably already have my contact information, but otherwise, my cell is 090-2080-2666, feel free to give me a call.